Different Typical Day

Out of all the experiences in life, one that a majority of people would dread is the experience of losing someone dear to them.  I’ve been unfortunate to experience this quite a few times in my life.  As my calendar alarm goes off indicating the anniversary of the death of someone I was close to, it automatically becomes an interestingly different yet typical day.  That might not make sense but it somehow does.

Today is one of those days.  Having spent most of my time the past few months just living and enjoying my life, it becomes surreal when I look at my phone and see that today’s the day a dear friend passed exactly a year ago.  It’s funny because I had, for the first few hours of my waking day, thought today was just going to be a typical day at work.  When I realized at around my lunch break time what day it was today, a weird feeling passed by me. 

In the past, this day would have bothered me a lot and I’d probably just sit in bed all day in deep thoughts of nothing, but after having at least 6 of these days throughout the year this eerie feeling of sadness has slowly disappeared.  It has definitely changed me each time one of these days passes me by… made me stronger, more appreciative, and ironically happier in a way. 

I hope that for those who are going through a hard time having exerienced this particular hardship, they will not only focus on the mourning and sadness but learn to channel the entire experience to help themselves grow and eventually move on.

Posted 1 year ago with 3 notes
Tagged: personal moment  RIP  friend  death